Halfway there!

I don't know what happened but I am already halfway through the semester at school.  I didn't even realize it until I was looking at my syllabus for sociology trying to figure out when my paper was due and saw that the discussion on race (which we did yesterday) was labeled "week 8" and there are only 16 weeks in the semester.  I guess it just still feels so surreal to me that I'm even in school in the first place.  I know it's been months, but it still just feels like kind of a miracle.  Finishing school is something that's always been a huge priority in my life so now that I am able to do it after all these years--I'm just really grateful for the support system I have so that I can go to school, especially for my husband for working his butt off at two different jobs to support me and the girls.

I'm glad to know I'm on the downward slope though.  I have been getting super stressed out lately about all the stuff I have to do and my biology class is frustrating me more and more.  We've been learning about cells and DNA for four weeks now and it's so complicated and I hate it.  I mean, we get to do fun stuff too (we dissected worms last week) and it helps that the professor is pretty cool and his lectures aren't terribly boring.  But science has never really been my thing and I'm just sick of it.  I have another test in two weeks and I did really well on my first one but all the stuff we've been going over for this coming test is just so complicated and I'm feeling overwhelmed.  Plus I have papers due in English and sociology that same week, and two other tests. I hate that all the big projects/tests/papers all seem to be due at the exact same time always, but I guess that's the nature of the beast.  I don't know--I just get stressed out about getting good grades because I need good grades to get scholarships.  The financial burden I'm putting on our little family right now stresses me out SO much.  I end up crying about it just about every other week because I'm a baby like that  So yeah--it's all basically connected to that in the end, whatever I'm stressing about.  I probably make it into a bigger deal than I need to, but that's just me.  I worry about things a lot.

I haven't had much time to write this week, which is disappointing because when I'm feeling stressed out, writing helps me calm down a little.  Part of that is because of my work schedule.  I went in and talked to my boss about it and she ended up giving me most of my shifts back.  Problem is, they weren't all set up how I need them to be and it ended up being a really weird, screwed-up weekend for me this week.  I had a few evenings, a few nights, and trying to find time to sleep in between that with the girls was impossible.  I honestly can't even remember much of what happened this past weekend because I was so delirious, running on 2-5 hours of sleep every day.  This weekend is going to be more of the same, but after that I should be back to normal.  The boss lady isn't making the November schedules, so hooray!  That was a stupid idea to begin with, but whatever. I just work there.

I finished that Code Name Verity book I bought and it was freaking amazing.  Seriously--if anyone is looking for something to read, read that.  I loved it.  I normally don't like historical fiction but this was really good, and I especially appreciated the strong female characters and the way the relationship between them was portrayed.   And now I am working my way through the Harry Potter books again, which is fun.  I just finished the first one.  I really should finish A Dance With Dragons, but I wanted to read something a little lighter for a change.

And on a somewhat related note, The Walking Dead premiered on Sunday! I didn't get a chance to watch it until Monday night but it was so good!  Can I just take a moment to say how much I love Carol's character?  She's awesome! I mean, yes, I have hated her sometimes.  But as a character, she's great.  The way she's developed and progressed since the beginning of the show is just incredible.  Love her.  The whole reunion between her and Daryl was adorable.  And of course, Rick and Carl and baby Judith.  It was all just so happy and joyful and amazing....which I'm pretty sure means that the rest of the season is going to be awful and depressing, but I guess that's what you get in a zombie apocalypse.  I am a little confused as to what the whole point of Terminus was, though.  Like, they made such a big deal out of it in the last half of season 4, but we were really only there for not even 2 whole episodes, so.... I don't really know what to think of that.  I get that it provided a way for everyone to get back together after the prison thing, but that's just not really good enough for me.  Not when they made such a big deal out of it.  Am I just missing something? I don't know, I guess we'll see.

*sigh* well, I guess I should stop wasting time and go get some homework done.