Ugh, my motivation for school is seriously dead right now. I just don't have it in me. I think most of that is due to the fact that I had an ton of work to do this past week. Midterms and all that, plus I had this paper to write about interviewing a social worker. The interview itself actually ended up being really cool. I did that in February and really should have just written the paper right after I did it instead of slacking off and waiting until the last minute. Especially since I decided to interview someone my instructor used to work with at the agency she used to work for. Now I'm freaking out that I procrastinated too much and since my professor used to work there, maybe she's going to be extra judgmental or something if I screw up some of the details. I don't know. I also had three tests, one of which was a statistics test. I spent all my time studying for that and ended up getting a perfect score on it, which is fantastic. Or it would be, except the fact that I was so worried about the math that I didn't study at all for my two social work tests and ended up with low 80s on both of those. Whatever. Lord knows I need the A in statistics more than I do in the other classes, so I'm still celebrating. And by celebrating, I mean that I am spending the entire day doing absolutely nothing related to school at all (well, aside from this short paragraph I have to write for homework, but that's it). The plan is to edit a huge chunk of my novel today since I didn't get any of it done last week.
Spring Break is next week though, so if I can just hang in there a few more days, I'll be fine. I don't have too much work to do this week, so that helps. I decided not to pick up any shifts at work for Spring Break because I really just want a break, and I seriously need to do some spring cleaning. This place is a mess. Since we are planning on moving out this summer, the landlords are going to try and sell the house, which means people will possibly be coming through to look at it and it would be best if it didn't like like a family of crazy monster people lived here. Seriously though, housework is just not my thing. As long as the place is in decent shape, I'm happy. I saw this poem somewhere that was basically like, "Dust if you must, but at the end of the day, there are things that are way more important." That's basically my whole philosophy on life. I'm not going to waste all my spare time making my house immaculate. And I just gave up trying to keep up with picking up after Piper and Lexi because it's impossible. Regardless, a good spring cleaning is probably long overdue. I figure if I do one or two rooms a day, I can have the whole thing done by the end of the week.
I'm also excited to start working on some short stories and other projects during spring break. I'll be done editing the novel and hopefully will have shipped it off to some beta readers by next Monday, so I've been trying to think of what to do next. I've just been feeling kind of discouraged with it lately. It still needs so much work and lately, every time I look at it, I feel like it sucks and that I'm a failure. Obviously that's not healthy so I think I just need to back off and take a break from it for a while, shift gears and work on something else. I've got a few different ideas for short stories I want to write so I'll probably try to get some of those done and then work on editing them, maybe have one or two ready to submit to literary magazines or something in a few months. I don't know. A girl can dream, right? And hopefully, with some new feedback from new beta readers, I'll be able to figure out what's wrong with my story and how I can fix it. Later, though. When I don't hate it anymore.
Oh! I finished American Gods by Neil Gaiman a few days ago. That book, guys. It was a little weird, at first. Like, I read the first chapter and kind of went "Oh my gosh, what did I get myself into?" But the writing was so good, so I just kept reading anyways. I kind of took my time with it--I think I started it way back at the beginning of February. But I was just enjoying it so much and there was so much to think about so I didn't really want to rush it. I read like 60 percent of it between February and last week, and then finished the last half of it in a week. The protagonist, Shadow, was amazing. I love him. He is now on my rather short list of favorite fictional characters ever, right up there with Aragorn, Tyrion Lannister, Daenerys Targaryen, Roy Mustang, and possibly a few others. Seriously though--I haven't felt such a strong emotional connection to a character for a long time. You know that feeling you get at the end of a book or series, where you're just kind of sad that it's over and you feel kind of empty? Yeah--that's how I felt when I finished American Gods, but it wasn't because I was sad the story was over. I was sad because I didn't want to say goodbye to Shadow. He was an amazing character, and I loved watching his whole journey and transformation. Plus the book itself was just good. Neil Gaiman's writing style is amazing and I definitely want to read more books he's written, but the concept was just very thought-provoking and interesting.
I haven't decided if I want to start reading this other book I got yet (Kindred by Octavia Butler) or if I will wait. I also pre-ordered Transcendence by GSJennsen, which comes out Monday, so maybe I will read that instead. And I really need to finish A Dance With Dragons since the new season of Game of Thrones is airing in April, and comparing the events of last season to the books, I think the stuff in this season is going to come out of that book, mostly. Which means the show will probably catch up to the books--if not this season, then next--and I'm not sure what will happen then. I read this article somewhere last week about how George R.R. Martin's publisher said the 6th book will not be released this year. So even if it's released next year, there's still one more book that has to be written, which means the TV show will definitely catch up with the books before the full series is finished. Basically they were saying how no matter what happens, it ends up being kind of a crappy deal. Either the TV show goes on hiatus indefinitely, which doesn't seem likely since it's so popular. Or it diverges from the story in the books and they end it their own way, which also seems kind of lame. Or, GRRM just tells them how it's supposed to go to stay true to the books, which means we find out how the story ends through the TV show instead of the books, and as an author, that just seems kind of devastating to me. Especially since he's literally spent decades working on this story. I guess we'll see what happens. I think everyone kind of knew this was going to happen. I mean, the guy takes 5 or 6 years sometimes to write the next book. But it's still kind of sad...and annoying.